The HSC. Everyone makes it out to be the deciding factor in your life. I really hope it isn't. We got given our assessment ranks today. Which is depressing and has reassured me that I won't get the mark I need for uni. 49/82 in maths. And seeing as I missed my HSC maths exam... I'll receive an estimated mark based on that mark. In other words... I'm screwed.
But anyway... Its over now. The HSC is over. And I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I have far too much free time. Too much to fill with merely video games.
I went to Morisset with some friends this week. I wanted to stay there too. There were a few moments where I was ridiculously happy. Sitting on the balcony, watching the water as the sun went down, drinking cider and listening to The Mountain Goats. Also, swimming at night with the glowing shrimp things, making the ocean look like it had stars in it whenever you moved. Lying on the back of a strangers boat, looking at the sky. 5 shooting stars. Win!
Right now... I'm restless. Going to Nelson Bay next Monday but I feel like I should be sorting things out. I need a job. I need to move out. Well.. I want to move out. I suppose there is a difference..
Time to sleep now. I wish I had something more constructive to do or say. I feel like I'm just wasting time/space.


My mood is not content. dA won't let me change it.
If I had to classify this feeling in one word... I couldn't.